Dealing with WAW part 4

[pilot]

Even though things are going relatively well with W, I am really really questioning if it is worth the effort. I try to look at it as if she is someone I just met, how and would I handle it. The answer I keep coming up with is I would not be putting in this much effort. I know I have time on my side, especially if she is not pushing forward with the D and not serving me. Even going as far as saying let the petition expire and 'probably' file in our new state 3 months from now.

But I have to say I am tempted to reply on my own before the Sept. 19 deadline. And I say this not because I WANT to get divorced, I just want to move on with my life. I guess I am just tired of following the rules of marriage alone while not having any of the benefits of marriage. If she is on a journey to see if she can find happiness elsewhere, why not take this time and do the same. Problem is the state she filed in is a no fault state. So any extra marital activities are irrelevant in a divorce proceeding. However, in the state we are in now (Bible Belt) affairs play a role in how a divorce plays out. I am afraid if I do decide to date, without the protection of a pending divorce, this might be used against me should I allow the petition to expire and a new one filed in this state 3 months from now. Granted, she had an A which could be used against her in this state (not sure if she really understands that). I guess I have to speak to a L in this state to see how and what I should do.

At any rate, I am just rambling and feeling frustrated...