Don't forget, this is a marathon, not a sprint. I know - you feel like you've been on this roller coaster long enough. I GET IT. I've been on it since November. It stinks. But then, MLC takes YEARS. Affairs typically take a long time to burn out, too.
What helps me sometimes when I'm feeling particularly down is to say, "I've made it this far. Why give up now?" Honestly - the detaching has helped tons, too. I think I don't look like a sure thing anymore. Who knows. Maybe I'm not. But for now I'm hanging in there and holding on to the marriage.
How about if you write her a letter about how you feel and then you burn the letter? That might be kind of cathartic?
