mleigh - don't be so hard on yourself - those feelings are natural but at least you have the intelligence to look for ways to helping yourself. I think this is something we all struggle with - we mostly hope for a R but how does one move past the stuff we have endured? This is a site on forgiveness that offers a 30 day challenge: http://forgivenesschallenge.com/ I just signed up so I can't speak to it really. Maybe look for an outlet for your anger - some physical class (I want to do boxing :)) or yoga seems to help me. I also look to my bible daily for inspiration. My H is similar to yours in the quiet type - I have said in the past I wasn't sure if he knew how to show emotion/love - looking back I just see we do that differently. Maybe finding out his love language can better help you understand how he demonstrates it and how you want it?
