Thanks gg, definite food for thought, and I am working at extracting myself and parts of our r, while still maintaining structure and consistency for the boys as the councilor recommended....sigh, what a balancing act.

on a plus side, I didn't exactly gal today but I did get my car booked in for a service, and spoke to the panel boaters about getting the word taken off my door, I did a few clients, dropped the boys off at H's and came home, so good day for me smile