#42. 50 is the new 40!

[kat727]

I am not always that calm. Lol. I cried on Saturday night. I do that...cry when I get mad. He wanted to spend the night at his girlfriends, I told him no. I would come get him if she isn't feeling well enough to drive him back home.

The thing is he still lives here. There are rules here. I am not trying to push him out but I do want him to keep with the rules that I try to maintain. So he came home on his own. He wasn't too happy with me, thus the edgy night. He told me that he knew he wasn't ready and he really needed my help. We are slowly talking. I did have him admit that he is trying to not be his dad and be there for his child. I get that, really. However, I told him that he would probably have to work at least two jobs. That this child has a 50% chance of having his medical issues and possibly some of hers( not sure if hers are genetic). They just keep thinking insurance covering the cost of having the baby. They aren't thinking of the after.

I know they are talking and he said he is listening to me. She hasn't really talked to me the last few times she has been over. They just go and talk in the back. Hopefully reason will get past the emotion.

Keep us in your prayers...that I can keep it together.

kat