Crap day today. Had a bad sleep with heavy dreams about WAH, imaginary OWs, and just horrible dreams all around. Yuck.
After several days of contacting me all the time, WAH is being more distant today. Unfortunately the timing is bad as I needed his help (that he offered) with something urgent so I needed to contact him and for him to respond quickly. So unfortunately I had to email, text and also call him. I tried to do it in the most relaxed way possible, without being needy or clingy but repeated contact is not what has been working for me. And yep, indeed I feel it didn't really work for me today.
I felt my position of power slip. He's been reading my messages and not replying, while just yesterday that was my role! I can't tell if he is doing it to punish me for ignoring him or because he is busy or for another reason. It doesn't really matter I guess.
Well, I got the help I needed from him so now I can again go back to NC. This DB game is such a roller coaster!
It's funny also to read my own words above! I just made the situation sound so dramatic. Like yesterday he was in love with me and today not. The reality is that yesterday he was calling, texting and asking lots of questions, and then today he didn't reply to my messages immediately. It's not like the world ended but my non-detached self just makes a big deal out of every little thing that happens.
Once again I need to calm down. I'm just under a lot of stress right now with other things and I think I am not rolling with the punches as well as usual.
Hope all my DB buddies are having a good day! Hugs, LisaB
