I was doing well with detaching, the W called S last night and said goodnight, all was good .. she had asked me earlier in the day to look for the Honeymoon trip (We took that about 5 years after we married) ... so I was looking around and found some older pics of our S when he was 2, only 5 years ago but we were so happy, looked 20 years younger .. not sure if thats what did it or not .. but I woke up at 1:30 this morning and could not stop thinking about her, and everything .. OM, the separation, what I really want, the pain and hurt ... all of it. She had told me the A was over (I dont fully believe her but want to) .. so I broke down and snooped .. sure enough a recent post of her with my S at a ball game and he "liked" it
I know I need to get over this, but it bugs ... I dropped off S this morning and she wanted a hug, I was hesitant ... but gave a half hearted hug and wished her a good day, tried to be positive but just was not with it today. I did not bring any of this up... just felt like I regressed a bit today after I was really happy with all the progress I have made.
