Instead of freaking out I'm going to post here. I have a constant feeling of impending doom! At least what it feels like. I know it's okay to feel this way, I'm just trying to not feel this way with her. Even when I text her I try to be as strong as I can be, not a emotional wreck. I can't just shake this feeling like I'm losing the most important thing I've had.
All my feelings for her have come back so much to where they once were. She was so mad at me, unforgiving in everything I did wrong, I gave up and said I just don't care anymore. Now I know I was hiding behind all the fear, and not being honest with myself about who I had become. I am so very sorry for all of it, and know I can do, and will do better. But I just don't know if I can ever get her heart back to me.
Hopefully with this board I can just keep putting my thoughts here, and keep the more emotional stuff from her. God I do miss her so fiercely!!
