Wife dropped the bomb; doing in house separation

[HopeTex]

Had a really good weekend. Travelled to a conference with a big group I am a member of, a bunch of smart and fun people. Lots of fun activities and parties. W is on her trip with the kids to Denver.

I did a good job of focusing on enjoying the weekend, being present and having fun, and not obsessing on the M.

It was a good GAL experience. Really reminded me that there is a big big world out there, full of fun people and experiences. I still don't want a D, but the trip was a good reminder to me that there is plenty of life out there to be lived even if D happens. I know when I get into depressed mode thinking about D, I think in terms of scarcity and negativity: "If D happens I will always be miserable and alone. D will be proof I am not capable of a good R. No one else will ever want me. I won't be able to handle the pain of D. Etc etc.". Weekends like this remind me that life is abundant, there is a world of life and fun out there you just have to open up to it and know you are worthy and capable of dealing with and thriving in life whatever obstacles get thrown your way.

A couple of very attractive and intelligent women displayed very strong signs of attraction to me. I know those are dangerous temptations and now is not the time for anything like that. But I just took it as a nice reminder that life and love is ahead of me whatever happens in my M.