Thanks oad, need all the encouragement I can get right now. I know deep down it's a patients thing. I see an opening and try to exploit it. I just can't keep out if my own way. I was being nice, complementing her, not talking about us, and then boom I switch back to old selfish me. And there it is, being the old selfish me, that wants everything my way right now. I am going to try and just post everyday on here, maybe if I post every day that I didn't contact her, it will give me a sense of owning up to it. I need someone to hold me accountable, until I can do that on my own.
