We have been divorced since December. We were physically separated for a year before that. So I've been through all the emotions.
We have been getting along just fine. Living two separate lives except where our son is concerned.
I had found myself settled in to my new life. Quite content. I have gone out with several nice girls. None past a second date but... I'm looking.
Which brings me to the reason I'm posting today.
I'm on a dating site and who do I see??? Yup. XW.
A flood of emotions poured over me. I don't want to feel anything. I want to be numb to it. Yet, here I am thinking of us again. I sent a playful msg to her and she responded in a playful manner. I left it at that and tried to move on. But I didn't sleep well at all that night. Tossing and thinking of her. The next day I decided to send a new msg. It was very sweet and sincere. No response from her. Anxiety has been high for me since then. For the last three days I've slipped into a funk. Thinking of the past. Hoping for a future with my family back together.
I'm a great guy, an excellent father, and to be honest it hurts deep in my soul that xw has never once looked back in my direction.
I will be fine. I know I will. Just feeling sad about it all.
