MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

Hey Bob! No ABSOLUTELY BD'ing got me where I am now...for no other reason than I do have my own life without her now. I see my family more, my old friends, I meet new ladies, and I am even learning to lay guitar...FINALLY! All of that is because DB'ing got me through those first two months. But it's at a point now where I am running out of time and many DB tactic require extraordinary amount of time. I had that time two months ago...now I don't. So no, DB'ing did anything but fail me...if anything it saved me. It saved me in a way that I can "pursue" and if she still goes, I've already mourned her leaving.

I just know she is very receptive to me right now, VERY receptive...and I feel like I need to be part of her life right now. Everytime she is with me she questions her move...and not through anything I do to influcence her...just the way she feels with me now. She feels like she used to when things were good with us and I know that's a new kink in her plan. So I can't let that kink fade away, I need to keep it alive. That's why I am "pursuing"...because I feel DB'ing got me to this point where she even WANTS to see me...before she couldn't wait to get away from me. She is different now, the grass is always greener is realized by her now. So this is my last chance really. I have no time to NC anymore which is what DB'ing would tell me to do now. I'm sure it would work again if I had the time, but drastic times call for drastic measure. Sure, I'm sure this will all blow up in my face tonight...but so won't not talking to her ever again and having her just move. Either way I lose. See what I mean?