Look, she has had boocoodles of opportunities to tell you she wants to give these next six weeks a trial run to see if it helps her decision. (Just so you know, I am not saying that would be the thing for you to do.) . Has she suggested that the two of you spend her last weeks together? I know she makes goo-goo eyes at you and keeps you dangling by telling you things like you aren't making it easy to leave -- and when she moves to FL she'll come back to get you. And it works, b/c it throws you for a loop and you start all over again wondering if you should continue to peruse her before she leaves.
Hurt, you have got to stop all this wishy-washy talk with her. Why would she ever believe you mean what you say? How many times have you told her one thing just to completely reverse in the next day or two? That is not good. You need to be the stable minded person here, b/c she certainly isn't.
Has she once asked you what it would take to reconcile the M? She tells you other things about show she feels. But here's the thing, so many WAW's who have been in an A.....and they are experiencing all this "confusion" over their feelings? They are still caught up in themselves. In other words, it is still all about her and her feelings. She is still putting herself first. What she wants and what she feels. Some of them really think thar all it takes to R the M is for them just to move back home.
A lot of LBH's start announcing their conditions, or whatever, and the WAW doesn't take him seriously or isn't interested.......b/c he starts all making those proclamations at the wrong time. Timing is crucial.
Has she inquired ? Or has it been mostly you assuming this is what she is thinking about? Maybe she has "stated" she is giving it consideration, IDK. She doesn't seem to have a problem talking about other things, saying she still loves you, spending time and being passionate with you. I find it a little strange she wouldn't ask you what you would expect or want to see happen in order to reconcile and heal the M.. Why wouldn't she approach it if she is so confused about what she wants to do? Maybe I missed that part, IDK. But if I am hitting it pretty close.......then please stop and think about it.
I strongly advise you to stop talking about your stitch to her friends, and your friends! It keeps you off balance and confused. Make up your mind and stick to your decision! . There is even a difference of opinion here on the board, so base you decision on your deep personal values & belief system.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
