WAW not admitting to affair #3

[shodan]

Some more journaling...my wife commented that I have not looked at her the way that I am since before the kids were born. Two months ago she said "when u look at me I know u don't find me attractive" so her new comments are a slight improvement. I also have been rubbing her feet from time to time, which she says hat she likes. But she also said that I have not done that in years.

In the end I am listening to her and really getting a sense for what was missing...we needed more quality time together, I needed to listen better, I needed to show my affection for her. She also told me of her low point when she was late picking up D10 from soccer practice and she told D10 not to tell me because she knew I would be mad. Clearly I have created some extreme control and anxiety issues with her that will take time for her to get over if ever.