It feels lately that we have gone back to almost where things were this time last year. After it felt like we were moving toward a friendlier place (I tried to keep any expectations that I had to a minimum and enjoyed it for what it was worth), she is now only talking to me the bare minimum.
This weekend, she came up to take the kids to a birthday party for one of their friends and then they went to the beach afterward. Before, she would have let me know what she was planning to do with the kids, but this time I had to ask so I could plan my day. I had gone to help some friends and at 9:30, I still hadn't heard anything about when they would be back. I sent her a quick text asking if she knew when they might be back and got no response. When I came home an hour later, they were all in bed asleep.
When I woke up this morning, she was gone. S8 said that she had to go to work. I got a text from her saying that there was food in a bag in the fridge. I thanked her and asked if she would be back today. Again, no response.
I don't know if I should say something to her about the lack of communication. Not so much for myself, because I know that I can't expect things there, but about communication in regards to the kids and schedules on the weekend.
I also know that being on hiatus between seasons on the show I'm working on is REALLY not being kind to my mind. I have been looking for work to fill the gap, but it hasn't been forthcoming. I take joy in being a provider for my kids and it's really shaking that.
Ugh.
M:35 W:31 S: 9 D: 5 M: 11.5 yrs BD: 5/13 W moved out: 7/13
