Ready!!! Confuse Theeeeeeeeeeeee....(Pause)...CAT!

[LoisB]

Before I move on, though, here are the main points of my Scientific Obervations....

1. I really AM different. I'm different in how I interact with people and how I feel AROUND people. I like me. I feel confident. I love myself and appreciate how I'm unique and worthy.

2. My mom manipulates behind the scenes...a lot.

3. D20 can't pull my puppet strings anymore. And, I think she knows it. Although, I didn't like how I was so upset after this tantrum...even the feeling upset BECAUSE of HER episode was TOO MUCH FOR ME. I will not have my life UPSET by such insanity and silliness.

4. D11's progress is real. REAL. I received many, manyyyyy comments on how incredibly confident and social she is...very different from the little girl who used to be attached to me like a leach. I received a lot of Atta Boys and support for our hard work and sacrifice.

5. My family's intrigue and behind the scenes analysis isn't as heavy as my paranoia has given too...but, I also see WHY I feel the way I do. AND, I DO THINK MY MOM is the SOURCE OF A LOT OF Insanity. It was pretty awful (the judgment/analysis from everyone)for a very long time and old habits are hard to break. My dad has mellowed. Or, he is on some sort of medication...:-) Either way, I will take it. Felt the most unconditional love from him than maybe ever. Or, maybe, now, I'm just better at being open to it???