Had a great night last night, the band 2 as really good, got to sing my lungs out, have a bit of a dance, only hit a flat spot when I realized that all the people I was with were coupled off, but shook it off and gad a good night. of course h never turned up, ow would have been at his place. dropped the boys off to h this morning, he asked if he could have the car today do he could take the boys to a play Centre, I said yes then he asked what my plans were for the day, which was nothing, asked if I wanted to come ( I felt he felt he had to ask) so along I went. it was a nice day with the kids, again only a couple of flat spots, one when h said he needs to get a car for when he has the boys, which I said months ago, we just reverted into old patterns, I felt unheard and he feels like he's being attacked. I guess in my mind, I was thinking why now? What have you and ow been 5 asking about? am I encroaching on your space too much? this moment passed, and the only thing for me that changed the tone of the day was when we'd finished doing some shopping for the boys, ow rang and he took the call, he walked off a bit and I got back in the car, he apologised for the call (???) and gave my leg a squeeze. we got back to H's place, played hide and seek for a while, had dinner, showered the boys, put them to bed and I came home. I thanked h for letting me interlope on their day, he he said it was fine and he appreciated it (not really sure what that meant) I know it's a marathon not a sprint and to look for the small stuff, sometimes it's hard to see the small stuff. Just feeling a little flat right now, house is really quiet, and I'm tired and I've spent the day playing happy families, so a bit of a crash to earth I guess.
