Spacey, I appreciate the feedback. I like the part about forgiving myself. I'm working on that.

I really don't think I'm depressed. I may have been for a while before the BD. I feel pretty good about life. I'm hopeful for my situation, but I know that I will make the best of my life no matter what happens.

When I say I'm not that outgoing, I don't mean that I'm not interesting or that I think badly of myself. What I mean is that I just don't enjoy being on the go a lot.

Getting involved in a soccer league, going to classes at the gym every morning, my kids activities, and back at work soon, plus staying up on all of the house and family day to day stuff that speaks my W's love language is a ton for me.

Being honest with myself, if I took on more than that, not only would I not be able to sustain it, I'd probably actually become depressed due to stress.

Me: 34 W:33
T: 10 M: 6
S: 6 D: 5
BD: 5/14
Still together(ish)
Not giving up: 7/14
D talk has slowed, a lot.
Gradually working on things together. Still separate bedrooms.
Slow and Steady wins the race.