MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

I also want to mention what makes this hard is a lot of people around here who know WAW are telling me that I really need to be spending as much time as I can with her now. Of course this is the complete opposite of NC so I just don't know. She is different now, she's not that cold-hearted WAW, instead she is "herself" but incredibly devoid of any self worth and/or self esteem. She is completely ashamed of herself. She thinks of herself as "disgusting." So I don't know, part of me thinks I should try and spend a lot of time with her...however a bigger part of me is saying stay in NC. Time is of the essence here and that's really what's causing me the stress, I have a deadline of sorts because even though it's probably possible that we could reconcile even if she's down there...that just seems implausible to me. You have to see each other. I am so exhausted over all of this.