H's MLC #3

[reachingHigher]

Wanting 2BHappy,

Thanks for your post on my thread.

Do be encouraged! Follow the advice of the vets here.

My husband said many times "its over. No hope of getting it back. I am never coming back to you. The spark is gone and it will never come back."

Yet, here we are blissfully in love....a much deeper-then-infatuation love I never dreamt possible.

Take courage, take care of yourself! Let time go by and work on the things that were wrong in your M and areas you wish to improve for yourself.

I remember the desperate wanting to be loved, be held. I remember reading here on the forum, what is the point of waiting for a man who hasn't kissed your neck in over a year? I felt so lonely, so alone.

Yet, in some ways, my husband felt worse than I did during this time. At least I was faithful and kept integrity. He was lost, confused, alone and drowning in alcohol and partying. He went through emotional anguish especially as the tunnel squeezed him at the end.

It was awful for both of us...but you know what? He said this week "we both agree that what we went through has strengthened us both and made our M better." Its the crucible.

Hang tight!

Hugs,
rH