The Amoeba Whisperer: "It's All Dog Training!"

[GoatGal]

POSSIBLE RELATIONSHIP TALK TOMORROW!!! I am circling the wagons and calling my DBing posse. I am going to need some help with finding the right words.

I need to go over my script so I'm really, really prepared.

It has been a rough week.
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Also---I am kicking myself for not realizing this sooner, but it finally hit me why I'm in such a funk.
It is coming up on a year to the day when I "Lost my innocence" about my M and what my H was capable of doing.
Before I "knew" what I knew.

The weather is the same, that similar pregnant feeling in the air...
I remember the last few weeks of summer last year when things were so odd between us, yet he wasn't talking.
I remember feeling really really sick around this time, not knowing why.
My hair was falling out... among other things.

However, I was still ignorantly happy, figuring he was going through something and being a man, he'd figure it out.
Boy was I wrong...

Then it was our anniversary, not a card, not a word, not anything---he picked a fight over PIZZA---I had another cancer scare, he ignored this, he was treating me terribly, I discovered OW, and he turned officially into the shark-eyed pod person.

I guess prior to that he was just pretending to be a good man.
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So I believe that's what I'm reacting to deep down, why I'm so sad, so tired of this, why all this stuff is bubbling to the surface.
I wasn't sure until I got a rare nap today, and when I opened my eyes--it HIT me like a ton of bricks and I started crying.

It's the anniversary of when my dreams died.
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Anyhow, gather round the campfire, let Cooky rustle up some vittles and a few jugs of STFU juice, and prepare to brainstorm about how to save the old Triple G ranch!

---GGG