2.5 Months After D-day...and I wait

[DBinSF]

No, she didn't. Her boyfriend never wrote her an email like that, she said. She basically said this email has all the elements she would have wanted to hear but never did.

And I appreciate all the warnings. Yes, I'm freaking out and getting impatient. I'm also not able to move in with my life being in limbo like this. I'm spending ALL my time thinking about this at the expense of work, health, friendships, hobbies, etc. Yes, I have a lot going on with my MBA, my men's group, my volunteer work, my 12 step work, etc., but the main undercurrent is missing her. Nothing is fun. No food tastes good. Nothing is enjoyable without her in my life. I know how pathetic and obsessed that sounds, but I just want to be honest.

I messed up the Love of My Life, and I can't forgive or let go. So, part pf me wants to force the situation -- tell her I need to let her go for good, and let her come back some time of she so chooses. But purgatory isn't working for me.

You know?