Hi Maybell! Interesting that your H has been saying he wants to be closer but is confused or nervous about it. That's a great step I think. I wish my H would say he wants to be closer and is confused. He just keeps saying that the relationship is dead and over. Also thanks for pointing out the positive female stories.
Thanks for the encouraging words Joe and Stacey!
Went out to a restaurant by myself today for lunch. Was sitting eating and doing some paperwork and a guy started smiling at me and talking to me from his table nearby. Then he came and sat with me and started chatting. I wasn't really attracted to him but he wasn't bad. I have had a few experiences in the past week with decent looking guys hitting on me. I wonder, if these strangers find me attractive, how can my H (who obviously used to find me appealing) be so detached, weird and cold?
Yesterday when we had dinner I noticed he was staring at me when I wasn't looking. I couldn't tell if he was staring like "oh wow you are so amazingly gorgeous" or like "she has even more wrinkles than last time I saw her" or like "she's so ugly, how did I ever find her attractive". But yeah, he was staring at me.
Friendly messaging continues with the H today. Not sure what it means. Maybe nothing, I'm just rolling with it and we will see what tomorrow brings. I've been trying not to answer messages in the evening so that maybe he will wonder if I am out on dates. I know, game playing but hey... if it works...! Plus, I am actually out being social most of the time!
