OK I'm feeling some kind of way,,,been feeling this for a couple of weeks, maybe since I came back from vacation with s14.

Its like on the vacation I was so relaxed and not watching every word out of my mouth, not having to look at my roommate (H)and not cuss him out if I want to.

I keep hoping this feeling of me wanting to be done with my M would go away...it has not. Now I'm scared, scared because I feel done, want to be done. This H I have now I dont want, and tired of waiting,,,

I see small tiny steps,,but not enough and really they come and go as soon as they appear...

I need to make sure my emotions are not leading this thought, this need to come from my whole soul.

Is it the anniversay coming up that Im preparing to ignore, that I'm planning to avoid.

I put this ring back on, I want to take it off, the reason why I dont,,,I dont want others to see me without my ring, to ask questions or to wonder what type of wife I am. I also worry about what H thinks when I dont wear my ring,,then I take it off and I feel sad, naked without it...and the worse part when I dont have it on and get attention from other men,,,this worries me also,,,

so I leave it on and I sometimes get angry when I look down at it.

Ok, Im emotional right now,,,its the weekend going to have a glass of wine zand get some extra sleep tonight...

S14 has a game tomorrow, after that I need to figure out something to keep me busy this weekend.

Me 43 ring off Oct 2014 (my ring back on Feb 2015)
H 51 (ring off 7/2013)
M 2007 T 1996
S 14
July 2013- H told me he was unhappy.....said he is staying for Son
Feb 18 2014 Found out about OW