Quick to listen, Slow to speak

[holdingon]

Well, guess I need to list my own positives since otherwise I may slip into a pity party:
1. H is more himself lately than ever. Gone is the horrible person he turned into over a year ago. Still missing is the lovable H that I know well, though.
2. He is incredibly concerned about the kids. Their morals, driving, drugs, sex, etc.
3. He seems to be concerned about things at the house... 4. He is calling more during the day.
5. He seems to talk about more than just the kids when we talk.

I have been down this road so long I wonder how much of this is just through rose colored glasses. The baby steps are so far between, don't know that I would even call them that.

Goals:
1. Work on my future plans for job, career, etc.
2. Continue act as if everything is just wonderful as it is.
3. Continue to be upbeat and confident. Really TRY to be upbeat and confident. Low PMA has totally plagued me lately.
4. No R talks, no asking about him or what he is doing.
5. Be unavailable, busy, getting on with my life.