I work/volunteer in a place that is just made for matchmaking and our customers have put me on their To Do List. I am now being told of eligible men who would be perfect for me, who would love to go out just for a date, just to have fun.
I am not putting out this vibe. I am content to be alone right now, in fact, I worry that any part of me that assisted my dysfunctional marriage is still within me, and I will only carry it to the next R. I've got to fix myself before I start up with anybody else.
Also: it actually makes me feel bad, like I'll be "caught" and Mr. Gritty will be right, that he can't trust me. (I realize that is a residual from the first months after BD, when I believed everything was my fault.)
What I really want to do is continue my dancing lessons. Prior lessons were with my oldest S, who needed to learn how to dance for an event, but he doesn't need lessons now, the event is over. So I need a partner who can commit to an 8-week adult ed course.
I am so pissed off about infidelity that I don't want to be dancing weekly with somebody else's man. Nor do I want a single man because I would feel so awkward in such close contact. I am conflicted as to what to do.
I have several lesbian/gay friends who might be willing (and who want to lead) but they all live out of town.
I might call the dance instructor and ask for help in finding a partner. Me, and all the other women out there who need partners.
MEN... GET OUT AND DANCE. THERE ARE A TON OF WOMEN OUT THERE WHO NEED PARTNERS.
M:54, H:55 T:33, M:27 12/13 BD: EA 01/14 BD: PA, H leaves 03/14 H & OW break up 05/14 H says he will file for D 08/14 H initiates D 09/14 H wants to R 12/14 Still bungling our way through R
