Saying goodbye could be saying goodbye to the past, or things which didn't work, or the "old" r, or whatever you want. It could be rejuvenation and does not necessarily mean saying goodbye to a new r with h! Find the positive, right? I'm trying, anyway. Silver lining.... it is always there.
Yes, I believe the silver lining is always there. As I have moved forward in this process, things have come to the surface...God's reasons for all these changes.
Our youngest, D11 is really sensitive to criticism and tension. It's gotten better as she gets older. Smokey was a really moody, tense guy and used sarcasm to communicate his feelings. Having him here wasn't the best thing for D11. Despite all this pain from the situation, our day-to-day life has improved because she has been able to live without the worry that he will come in and disrupt things, criticize, get angry if she has a meltdown, etc...Her behavior has changed so dramatically and improved in so many ways since he left. She is much more confident and capable of handling life. It's truly a miracle that she is even able to consider a move from her home to another state. She is open to it.
It takes time, but you will get there Mighty. You will have a moment where you go, "WOW! I think I kinda get it. It's ok. This journey has a meaning and a purpose." Then, a month later, you will have another moment and another...it builds. Until, at some point, you turn around and you realize the person in the mirror is someone stronger and more compassionate and more...just MORE.
You are an awesome lady. Stay in your center...that sacred place inside you that is just Mighty...find that place of YOUR truth and you will be ok. :-)
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
