Stimulus-Response: The Experiment Continues

[GoatGal]

And sorry for the ranting... I know better than to let this train of thought take me over.

I hold it together most days---then comes the day, inevitably, where I just feel like I'm falling apart, worn down to the nub and there's nothing left to build on.

It's just hard to do this day after day, month after month, never knowing what's going to happen, or even what IS happening.

It definitely seems easier to cut and run.

This DBing is not for the faint of heart.
I don't know how people do this for years, when there are OM/OW...

I don't care how much you focus on and work on yourself.

At some point, there is your life partner, treating you like crap and jerking your leash all over until your neck is ready to snap.

And they're oblivious.
(Or worse, they're deliberately doing it.)

Some days it's just easier to tolerate than others.

I know I'm tired and run down.

The weekend with my friends giving me unwanted advice over and over was not fun.
It was supposed to be this relaxing weekend and instead it became about THEM and what THEY WANTED.

I've had enough of what other people want from me at the moment.

Thankyouverymuch.

---GGG