MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

Just an update...I thought long and hard today and I came to a decision. As wonderful as these past couple of weeks with WAW have been, as much as they felt so right, as much as we love each other...I had to put my foot down.
I told WAW today that all of this rekindled passion and love we are sharing is really for nothing as long as she still plans this Florida move. I told her I think it's best we just stop, stop pretending everything is okay between us. It isn't going to do either of us any good if we're not reconciling. So I cut things off. I feel this is best, to nip this in the bud and just stop it all.

I told her to always know that I tried to save us, with every ounce of my being I tried, but that I am exhausted from fighting and that I am surrendering, that I have no more fight left in me if only one of us is fighting. I told her we should just let it go at this point.

I need to see a real initiative on her part or we just need to stay away from each other. That's how I see it. We've tried to stay away several times over the past couple weeks but ever since the court date for the divorce obviously we both failed. Either she'd contact me to get together or I would contact her, things would get out of hand passionwise...we were both at fault for allowing things to happen that have.

So that's where I'm at, I'm sick and tired of pretending everything is good between us. All of it means nothing unless we're trying to get back together. I told WAW that if that's not the case, and it isn't as long as she plans this move to FL, that it stops now.
She understood and said she's sorry for letting me down, that she has to make this move for her and that she will always love me and always respect me and that if I ever needed her for anything at all to please contact her. I didn't reply to her last message and I'm not going to.
Time to go back to NC and back to my own life and give up the ghost, I've had enough. I know she'll regret this one day, but I just don't have anything left in my gas tank to fight with...I'm tired of it and I just need to stop now.

So that's it folks, that's where I'm at. I figured I might as well stop delaying the inevitable. So WAW and I are done. I feel I did the right thing, as hard as it was, I really think I did the right thing.