Feeling stronger than ever

[mleigh4]

Tuff and Ssarah - thank you for the encouragement and advise. It helps so much when we get this

A mental note to myself. I feel like a year through the journey, the dust is starting to settle. I envision this tornado like spinning on BD that lasted a few months for me. Then I moved out, moved back in, have had some unsuccessful R talks.... But when I stop the talks, step back and let life happen, it literaly feels like the world slows down and the dust settles. If I blow up, nitpick or try to talk, it's like kicking the dust back up. Things are beginning to look a little clearer for me. To be continued......

H has been doing a lot of shopping lately, but it's all home shopping for home improvement projects. He also has thrown in presents for me, S and the dog! Looks like he plans on sticking around?

I have noticed in the past week that H gets real close to me while in the kitchen, sitting, walking past. No physical affection or anything, just a closeness. So I decided to test the waters last night. While walking past him, he was leaned over, so I casually touched his back while I walked past. We were talking at the time and he kept right on talking, but didn't seem bothered by it.