We are doing ok. Wow, it was really painful. D20 and I have sorta been in shock. We keep remembering things that were said and things I've helped my mom with in the past few weeks.
It's like mom takes on the opinion of the person nearest her and most willing to participate in the "analysis" of everyone else. Analyzing other people doesn't do it for me anymore.
I had to work this morning, but the girls and I have vented some this afternoon. It's been good. We have had some "AHA!" moments where we have seen things with a fresh perspective.
I don't want to get stuck in the anger, but I DO need to change how I AM around them. I need to quit giving them all my power. I do think a move would help. Scary as he!! but maybe the way to embrace my own path and my own power. I've felt so thwarted here. I really have. I think I was given a role to play when I was small and I've felt so much pressure to BE THAT...it's not me though.
I really tried to talk to my sister yesterday. I did. I really tried to sort things out.
I guess she gave D20 some grief about not going back to school.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
