FINALLY SURFACING

[Fartiltre]

I texted W yesterday:
“I didn’t hear anything from [D7s friends] parents yesterday but I will give them a call this evening. I will let you know when I hear something.
I will pick up the bag around 15:30

I have thought a lot about the Wednesdays and I am still convinced it is in the Ds best interest to keep these days free. Therefore no activities! I will have the general talk with D7 one of the days.

Talk soon :-)
Fartiltre”

W: “Fine. I will be home when you pick up the bag”

When I came to her place I changed my “normal” routine so I went in and initiated a convo. We ended up talking about the Ds for 15 min. The talk was pleasant. W cried at some point because she is having a hard time setting D5 off at kindergarten. D5 is talking about missing and so. W is very emotional and cries easily. Nothing special about it – just a nice talk.
I did prepare for W to be mad about my decision but it wasn’t mentioned with a single word.
W also brought up that D7 still asks for more time with me and I told her that we will go over this issue next Thursday when we meet up.

So good to see the Ds again and today I picked up S11 as well. My little family is back together

I have had a talk with the friends parents and they totally understood my POV. We are looking for another activity for the children now. Hopefully we can find one!

I had a FANTASTIC talk with my partners today. About me, the work I do, my missing focus, my life….a lot. They are astonished about the changes they see in me, the way I handle my private life….it all - but they are not pleased with my focus at work. I can certainly understand why!
They want to keep me in so they offered me to stay if I wanted to, to keep my salary but also to cut my hours. I offered them to cut down my number of shares and to give them a bargain when they had stated their intentions and furthermore said that I will work on my work-focus with the same motivation as I have worked on private-me for the last year. I also told them that I will never get back to old me, that I can’t and won’t deliver the hours, that my children will always be my first priority. I stated some boundaries….it was a good and honest R-talk between partners and friends.
Bottomline: I get to keep my salary but take a major cut in hours….and I get to do it with a good conscience. At the same time I will work hard on my work-focus when there!
If I succeed in this, it will add a major pile of happiness to my life in general - so I will do the work!