You will get there as you posted, you will find strength you never knew you had. Your text communications are so similar to mine and I suppose a lot of people here. One day mine would ask me if I survived the storm ok (after a thunderstorm) and then I got "you're a thief and a whore" wow! Good thing is that i'm not as affected by it anymore, you do get stronger and you stop investing in the dead relationship and you realize you control your own thoughts, feelings, emotions. HE cannot make you feel any certain way, only you can control your feelings and responses. You got this. One of the hardest journeys ever but necessary now to get through it and you will come out stronger and more confident. Have faith, stay positive
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs