((( Holding )))

I know what you mean by "so dang hard"., but to keep detached you have to let go of the expectation for him to follow up two great days with SOMETHING more. Like Deb said ... "...be thankful for every great minute you have with your H!" and just let yourself soak in the moments you have together.

... and yes it dang hard to try not to project the moments into the future, but truth be told, there's no telling if there will be another one. Sorry if that sounded harsh, but in even in my sitch, sometimes it helps to keep reminding myself that if I have her affection today, there's no telling if it will be there tomorrow.

That you haven't heard from your H in the last couple of days, doesn't suprise me either. Those two days no doubt unsettled him in a way too! No doubt the time you spent exceeded his expectations too and now he doesn't know what to make of it. I'm sure there's got to be some smoke smoldering between his ears now, wondering what just happened as well. No doubt he now has more questions than answers, so now he's gonna pull back and try to figure out some of those answers. After two years, CAW & I are still doing this shuffle , so it could take a while before they come up with all the answers, but in the meantime they chances are they will come back to test the waters again ... just to see if what happened can be repeated.

so keep holdin' on ... and continue to work at being a better holdingon.

No doubt ... he liked what he saw those two days. Did you find a new car for S. In not, any chance of repeating the inquiry to keep searching?

'til later,
KAW