I agree w/Wonka on this. At least he gave you a heads up that he wouldn't be there, i.e., plenty of warning. Like teenagers, they don't want to tell you things.

Step over the ant hill and move along. Let it go.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.