Aaaw Chase, I'm so sorry. No matter when you learn about the O.W. it hurts. I remember reading all of your posts, you were a couple of months ahead of me. I had such hopes you two would make it.
You stood by him, and your marriage. You have great children. Please don't let his issues hold you back or become yours.
You are adorable , lovable, tender, and worth so much more than he'll ever come to realize.
You can and will keep moving forward. There will also be times when you just need a good cry. That's okay, and relieves stress, so you can grow even more.
<3 Thank you so much, Ambivalent. You always understand! And your words mean a lot.
"Please don't let his issues hold you back or become yours." ...
Yep! I need to keep this in mind for sure. Because of regardless of what is going on with him (and he is spinning.. still in crisis mode, I believe).. I am going to continue on my own path of moving forward, on to exciting and new adventures. I am quite happy right now, things are going extremely well for me.
He explained to me yesterday that he has been dealing with depression. He says he has talked to the doctor and counsellor and they trace it back almost 10 years. He had no idea. But I know that his personality and behaviour has changed drastically over the course of our relationship. I do feel for him. And talking to him about it kind of helped me understand where he was coming from when everything was going on. I wish him well, and hope that he can find his way.
M: 8 yrs T:14 Twins:7 S:5 BD:'NLILWY': Feb/2013 Mar/Apr/May: MC June: "living in limbo" Sept 12: H moves out Oct 20: reconciling Jan-Feb 2014:MC Feb 2014: separating, and H moved out.
