barely holding on - 2

[u-turn]

I know through our history that I should have focused more on her (and not just providing and not just the kids) I can't change the past. We were kid focused, but I do feel we were getting better doing things for ourselves as the kids were getting older.

Maybe all along she really wanted gifts (she never said that). I like giving gifts (get a little stressed out finding gifts)(I've been known to be stressed about spending money too).

It's definitely a 180 that is absolutely achievable, but maybe in the too late category because she is so focused on the negatives of the last year.