The S is really hitting the fan. D got in trouble at school today. She told a little boy she wanted to kill her mom, kill her dad and because he had freckles, him, too. She was sent to the office. The principal talked with her and d said she's upset because her dad is living in an apartment and her parents are trying to work it out but what if they don't.
I brought her home and we drew pictures if our feelings. She drew a picture of herself crying and angry. She wrote "worry, mad, sad" on the pic. I drew a picture of a her as a baby with a force field around her protecting her from a bad thunder storm. It said "protect". She then drew a picture of me as a baby with her protecting me and a picture of h as a baby with her protecting him. We talked "girl to girl". She said she just wanted a normal life.
It was so hard to have this chat with her. She asked why h and I couldn't just work it out. How she just wants us all together. How angry she is.
We talked about ways to get the anger out. She went outside and threw big rocks into the grass for about 20 minutes. She kept saying that she lived our house and wanted our family all back in it.
I let h know but it's hard not to hate him a little right now. I'm dealing with this with our daughter while he's off at the Hollywood a Bowl enjoying wine and dinner and an awesome concert. I guess it's the universe telling me I'm the one more equipped right now to handle her anger BUT he created this mess.
I just want to call him and say, "ok, I get that you're upset, I won't be that person anymore. We can do this and make this work!! Come home, stop all this!!" But it doesn't work like that.
