Knowing that Smokey and his family blame me for the situation is bad enough...but, to have MY family blame me...and, they do. They really do.
They don't understand the decisions I've made or make. In their eyes, I should have handled things differently. That's a hard pill to swallow. And, I know I haven't been the best sister or aunt...life with Smokey was always tumultuous...but, I always felt judged and felt I needed to protect myself. IDK.
I've been a good daughter though. I know mom has been stressed by all this and I'm sorry for that. But, I didn't deserve that today. I've been a good daughter in a bad situation which I'm trying to fix. And, to attack me now, right when things are beginning to turn around...That's hard.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
