It's about getting a happy medium; a middle of the road. It's about unconditional love, patience, being friends and giving our S's the sapce they need. It's about moving forward, on our own for a small period of time. Our S's and our paths separated, but it doesn't have to be forever. That same force that drew us together in the first place, will bring us back together.
Well, bought ANOTHER book today... thanks Vernetta! It is called Shattered Dreams by Larry Crabb. Just more info for my spiritual journey. Talks about how important it can be to suffer... and how that can send us on an even greater journey than the one we were on before the suffering... In other words, the best is yet to come!
Six lessons that shattered dreams will teach you: 1. Shattered dreams are necessary for spiritual growth. 2. Something wonderful survives everything terrible, and it surfaces most clearly when we hurt. 3. Some dreams important to us will shatter, and the realization that God could have fulfilled that dream pushes us into a terrible battle with Him. 4. Only an experience of deep pain develops our capacity for recognizing and enjoying true life. 5. Not many Christians drink deeply from the well of life... as a result, our worship, our community and our witness are weak. 6. No matter what happens in life, a wonderful dream is available, always, that if pursued will generate an unfamiliar, radically new internal experience. That experience, strange at first, will eventually be reconginzed as joy.
I called Vernetta today... was a bit confused after my phone call with H. She said nothing is different, keep on keeping on. She feels things are looking forward. Just being a friend to my H.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
You sound awesome, Holdingon. Keeping you and your H and boys in my thoughts and prayers. (((((Holdingon)))))
Mockers2
"Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
Friedrich Nietzsche
About a month ago, I had three crowns replaced... one of them the dentist had to do a root canal on. The tooth was so sensitive and sore for a long time. Yesterday, I was eating some fresh bread and I noticed that it didn't hurt anymore... and I hadn't even noticed!
My heart is feeling better, too. It is not completely healed, and today I was really busy cutting down some trees in the yard with a chainsaw and had to sit down and have a good cry... who knows why, well, I do know why, but who knows why now...
I really have started feeling much better, much less sadness, much more about moving on and living my life. I cannot control what my H does, will be okay regardless. I am really happy with myself, even when I am alone. I can see how much I have grown.
The kids and I are going skiing next Friday. We did not get airline tickets in time, so we are going to drive. This is the second big trip... we went to Mardi Gras, too. Really trying to have fun and make great memories with the kids... no moping here!
New goals (or old goals...) For me... feeling better and looking better! 1. Try to workout three times a week... bought a bikini and need to be able to fit in it!!! Really want to tone up! 2. Keep up with the tooth whitening thing. 3. Get skin in good shape for summer clothes! 4. Adjust to new contacts! No more reading glasses! 5. Prepare to take Teacher Certification test. 6. Keep reading the Bible, keep studying. 7. Give H his space... be his friend. Quit analyzing his moves and motives. Ask the Lord for lots of help with this! 8. Be a good friend to my friends. Call more, care more.
Well, still holdingon... getting kind of bummed that my date is getting to be one of the really old ones!!
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
