Quick to listen, Slow to speak

[holdingon]

What I meant was I have not "moved on" with another man... I have certainly moved on with my life.

I had that realization tonight... I WILL be okay regardless what happens. I thought that without H things would never be okay, and I realized tonight that things will be okay regardless. I am not alone, and have not been alone through this whole struggle. I know this because the old me would not have been strong enough to get where I am. I have felt the Lord's arms around me... and whatever happens I know I will never be alone again.

I have grown so much. I never thought I would be able to handle what I have handled. I am a better, more thoughtful, more patient, more humble person. I have seen the absolute ugliness that people can produce, but I have also experienced the most wonderful, loving sweetness that we are capable of also. I am no longer afraid... not of the future, not of what others think, not of the decisions I make.

If H does not come back, I know the best is yet to happen... the Lord promises that.

I have lived my life with integrity. I have never intentionally hurt anyone, and as best I can, won't. I hope to be able to be a blessing to others.

So... what will be will be, and what is, is. I have today. I have my wonderful children, and I have an awesome personal relationship with the Lord. Oh, I have some pretty awesome friends, too.