1 step forward, 1000 steps back - part 4

[mdu]

Definitely whenever I see H these days my PMA takes a hit the next day. Although we are pleasant to each other there is a definite distance. It feels like we’re really just becoming friends at best, whereas before OW came to his office we were clearly headed in a more romantic direction. I also don’t particularly like that H is being a bit secretive. The fact that he went to OW’s ‘old’ office the other day and obviously felt he couldn’t tell me makes me wonder. I mean if she’s not there because she’s in the office here now what has he got to hide? I know folks may say he didn’t tell me because I might ‘go off’ but if she’s not with him what’s to ‘go off’ about?

I keep wondering what’s going to turn this situation around and my gut feel is that it will not turn around unless something dramatic changes with OW. If for some reason H’s attraction to her dies (I suspect it still lives and is interfering in his feeling for me). Or if for some reason OW leaves that office and isn’t in such close proximity anymore. It seems like something has to happen to completely end things between them. I don’t see any other way. And I’m not sure how long I’m willing to wait around to see if things *might* turn. In a way, I feel like *my* attraction to H is dying in the process.

On a brighter note, I brought myself a bow saw and chopped down a few small trees last night. WOOT!