Mindsink - Part 2

[mindsin]

A sense of normal

Last night, we were behaving like a happy family. I know deep down that it can be like this ALL THE TIME if I do my part as a good man and a good husband. At the same time, I know that she has many wounds that never healed which she carries with her (and has been carrying with her for years).

What I've also learned over this time is that we are great domestic partners and great parental partners. It's a shame that it has come to this. I can sense the clock ticking. These are the final days of us as a family in this house. Very sad.

I made breakfast for her this morning. She was happy about it. We both wished each other a good day and left.

She's also spent the last two nights at home. I was happy about that, but it could simply be due to circumstances (e.g. if OM is traveling) and I'm not going to ask.

Occasionally, she's asked me, "if [OM] hurts me, what are you going to do?"

I always reply, "I'm gonna kill him (jokingly)". We've exchanged this friendly banter off and on again since BD. I think in some way, she still sees me as someone who will protect his W and family.

My W worries about the OMW trying to destroy her career. I try to validate her feelings, but at the same time, tell her that if she had that intention, she would have done so by now (she is friends with her H's boss -- who doesn't know the situation). She has e-mail records, chat trascripts, and hotel receipts that provide evidence of the A. She's had this evidence since late May. She could easily go to her (H's boss) and spill the beans.

I have bigger fears -- physical threats/violence, extortion, kidnapping, murder. I don't know what OMW (or any of her friends/relatives) are capable of doing. I'm not sure if I should share these fears with my W. She might think I'm crazy myself.