Quick to listen, Slow to speak

[holdingon]

Was I pursuing? I initially asked him if he wanted to go to a play this weekend. I said, "I think I know the answer, but don't want to assume" and then asked him. I asked him because I always assume he doesn't want to do anything with US and then I thought what if he does, but wouldn't ask? Anyway, he sort of said no... and said I'm never sure of anything...

I do not believe in my heart that we aren't going to at least try. How does a person throw away a marriage, kids, a great house and even a dog??? I don't get it...

I'm strangely calm... does my body know something I don't or am I finally numb?

I hate this.