H has been back and forth with his moods/depression quite a bit but has still been reaching out. I do think he sees me as the stable one he can turn to more and more.
He's been looking for a new rental to move into next month. I guess he out in an application on one today as he is stressing out about qualifying since current job ends this week. He called me today to tell me it was officially ending Friday. Then later texted " how are you" which meant he wanted to talk more. I texted how are you back and that's when he said he put an offer in and it " made him sick to his stomach". I asked about possibility of renting a room until he has continued income, and told him offer still stands to use S19 room for few months if needed as he will be at college. He texts back the way he feels he wants to live under a bridge in Uganda. Poor guy.
Then he texted back and forth a bit saying he just stressed about everything and he never knows if he's doing more harm then good anymore. Then texted "sorry".
Hmmmmm- what I wanted to do was prod that conversation a little more - I.e. Did you realize you made a mistake, do you want to move back with us, etc. But I didn't. I feel like he is starting to come around and he needs to arrive at those conclusions himself. So I just texted no need to say sorry I'm here to listen even if he's just working through the thoughts in his head. He said he'd see me Thursday ( he's traveling to speak at conference).
So I think this is all good. He's reaching out and sharing with me. He's rethinking ( yes I'm mind reading- I know) his decisions. And I think being away from this awful job will be good even though there's some unknown.
I'm hoping me being out of touch next week doesn't hurt things but I soooooo need this vacation free of the stress of all if this! 5 days until cruise.....
Me 41 H 40 M 20 T 23 S 19,16, 8 D 13 BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015 Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown
