"The third time's lucky. "

[TL72*]

thank you CC and Matt -
I wondered about the recent hostility as well - haven't heard from him in over 2 weeks. I emailed him yesterday regarding the escrow refund check because the bank said they mailed it monday the 4th, then i got a letter from them saying that they are using the ex's mailing address now so that meant the check would go to him and not me. I called the bank and they said they show the address as the same as mine even though I got a letter from them saying otherwise. frustrating. just want this last bit done and over. the ex never responded to my email so I need to just let it go. if he gets it, he can either contact me or keep it, i'm not going to invest my emotions in this any longer. easier said than done, but it was more the principle than the financial aspect. I don't need the money, I mean it's mine, and yes I could always use it obviously but it's not a dire need so would be less drama if I just let him take it. It is obviously bothering me though, why can't I just drop it. Praying on it. Don't want to be sucked back in, especially when i'm the one that contacted him about it which means I opened myself up to it. I was very cordial in my email and asked if he'd like to split it 50/50. On the dating front - my "Chance" has been a dream come true. supportive, encouraging, giving, gracious, communicative, just all the traits I like and it has been a nice change. Hard to get used to when you've adapted to a different style for so many years. It feels good knowing that I don't "need" someone because i've been handling all the things on my own for the last 6 months - more really since the ex was pretty much out of town all the time and then when he was here the last year I was still handling everything. It's weird to have someone want to do things for you - it's a little weird to remember to say "ok" and let them do for you when you're used to being the giver but it's so nice. Trying to enjoy the present and put the past behind me. Just journaling now, rambling on, I can't believe it's August already and before you know it the holidays will be upon us again. I'm actually looking forward to it, never thought i'd say that again, but I'm still making progress in this journey. Finding there is much happiness to be had in spite of everything.