Argh. I had a setback last night and called H to let him know that I was reaching the limits of my patience and asked if we could talk about it tomorrow. (We're supposed to have coffee anyway.) He said yes. I asked if he was mad and he said yes, because he feels like we are having these sorts of conversations every few days and it is wearing on him. (I don't agree with that, but I acknowledge that's his perspective.) I apologized and said that I didn't want to make him anxious, but I wanted to reach out and let him know how I was feeling before I got to the point where I was really angry and it might adversely affect our relationship. He told me to go ahead and do whatever I wanted to do and he would respond accordingly. We talked for a few more minutes and agreed to follow up this afternoon and to "keep an open mind," but he was clearly not happy. I'm so nervous that I've blown it!
Of course, I happened to pass him in traffic this morning on the way to work. As I drove by, I waved and smiled and he did the same. So, maybe it won't be as bad as I'm anticipating?
