WH, I'm sorry to hear about the poor toad. At least it wasn't a snake! If you have a hardware store near you, you might want to pick up a screen patch. They are small enough to stick over the torn screen w/o having to wait on your landlord to fix the screen. Cost is less than $10. Easy to stick them on and they do work.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
