1 step forward 1000 steps back - part 4

[mdu]

I know, that's actually why I'm glad I finally took the plunge last night and looked at the statement. I think that was actually something GOOD that came out of my suspicion...it motivated me to DO something that you're right, I was avoiding out of fear. And finally felt like 'ok, whatever it is I'm ready to face this.' Now that I'm over the hump of looking again I will keep looking because I don't want to bury my head in the sand.

And, I agree that I need to not jump to conclusions without hard evidence. Although I posted my anxiety here that's as far as it went. I didn't say anything more to H (I actually texted back 'Enjoy!' when he said he was at the mysterious brewery). So I think overall I did ok in the end.