Matt, I see you looking for comfort from the person who gave you this gaping wound. After a lion attack, I'm thinking you and the lion wouldn't hug it out.
I was stuck there for a very long time...reached out almost daily for nearly two years trying to find comfort from Smokey. It's a bad place to be.
Comfort yourself. You can do this!
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson